BLAR!

i make list, i make plans.  i put things all down to math.  i still feel that i am not getting anywhere.

there is also the horrible realization of by not doing any of the goals i will still be a failure and ain’t that what i am?

am i just scared of not having anything left on this list?  am i scared that i will have time to do more things that are better for me (reading, walking, meditating, writing)? 

as much as i want to push Matthew, i need to be pushing myself. 

i need to forget about bringing others up to my lvl and start raising mine. 

the plans i make i need to follow them thought.

i need to stop being scared of things.  i need to dig my hands into the good earth and start planting what i want to harvest by fall.

i want Halloween to be a blow out and that shit starts now.

making pass lvl 1

as i look over my TV app, i am getting to the part where there is not a lot of new shows coming out.  i’m gonna have free time if i let myself have it.

i think it’s time to try meditate. 

it’s been a goal to do it and it’s been falling to wayside.  i have the cds from Christopher Penczack’s The Inner Temple of Witchcraft and i have fairly good results with them.

i’ve never made pass “lvl 1” and want to get deeper with that. 

i did get my Book of Shadows in order and cleared out my saves on Instagram.  that brings my #SummerOfTheWitch to 40.5% done.  with the goal of 33% by the end of the month, i am excited by this.

Season of the Witch, Part IV

Season of the Witch, Part III

Grow my business.  This is at a standstill at the moment. 

Write 52 blog posts.  This post will make me at 67% done.

Read 3 books.  Read 4 books.  Standstill.

Develop a daily practice/meditation and set up an ancestral altar.  Shadow work.  So, I have changed my two religious goals to doing some shadow work for the year.  If I can get myself together better, maybe my other two goals will fall in line.

Crochet.  I’m to the point that I need to have yarn in my hands when I sit to watch TV.  I just need to refocus on my projects. 

Write.  Blar.

Improve my body.  As of today, I’ve lost 7.8 lbs.  I’m not really trying but I’m not not doing anything at all.  I want to start doing more, I just need to find the gumption to do so.

Overall, half and half.  I am moving forward with some stuff, and not moving at all with some other stuff. 

It’s a mix bag.  I’m ok with that.

Season of the Witch, Part III

Let’s look on how things are going so far. 

Grow my business.  No readings last month.  Did get my crafting table cleared off.  Once I am done with my Book of Shadows, onto the tarot research!    

Write 52 blog posts.  This post will make it 60%! 

Read 3 books.  Read 4 books.  Read 5 books.  I have hit my goal of reading 3 books so, I upped it.  If anything, my reading is doing great this year. 

Develop a daily practice/meditation.  Still a no with this. 

Set up an ancestral altar.  Not yet.  I need to set some time to work on my family tree, at least once a week. 

Crochet.  New rule:  If I am watching TV, my ass is on the couch and crocheting.  More crocheting, less gaming. 

Write.  No spark in that field.  Maybe a poetry challenge is in order. 

Improve my body.  Weight is going down.  Steps are going up.  Workouts are increasing. 

I feel that i moved forward this month.  I hope to take this motion and move more in March.

Season of the Witch, Part II

Let’s look on how things are going so far. 

Grow my business.  I did do a card reading last month so, paycheck is coming this month!  I have some ideas for making my own tarot prompts.

Write 52 blog posts.  46% done with that.

Read 3 books.  Read 4 books.  If I knew I had a page left of that one book, I would have read it last year.  I got 2 done so far so, 50% done.

Develop a daily practice/meditation.  Will come back to this.

Set up an ancestral altar.  I did buy a black rosery for it…

Crochet.  Will come back to this.

Write.  Just have not felt a need to write anything.  I have my idea for a story but, eh.

Improve my body.  I did a 10 min workout that is made for seniors but I did it! 

And now for the come back:  I have a developed a plan where I work out, crochet, meditated, or rest a day.  Monday, I crocheted, I worked out today, so tomorrow I can rest or meditate.  I will be making inches in 3 areas in the long run, and not the short haul. 

When I put it down on paper, I did make some inches in January.  Here’s to a fruitful February!