going feral

i am feeling, it.

i have plans, i want to write things, i want to live next month.

i’m not going to Springfield, i’m not seeing a Marvel movie, i’m not celebrating 14 years with Matthew.

i am going to do things i want on the 1^st.  i’m going places and doing the things i have not done in a long time.

i hope to find something.  i don’t know what i’m looking for but i will know it when i see it.

“Man, I ain’t changed, but I know I ain’t the same”  that line is hitting me harder and harder.  i know i was changing, i didn’t think i would get to this way.

i am making wild plans and going forward, the best i can. 

weekly update

i am 106% done for the month, 39% done for the year giving me a C+.  ta da?

some are up days and some are down days.  i need to find a happy middle.

i am nervous about my plans for next week. 

i need help.  i need to find help. 

and i think it’s coming towards me and i really need to work on that harder.

bullet point

• there’s a cardinal, female, that keeps banging on my window.
• Mom said that Renelda said that’s the dead looking in at you.
• i keep going to my outdoor altar with a deck.  i keep asking questions and drawing cards.
• i need to buy Snoop Dogg wine tomorrow. 
• this isn’t daily witchcraft.  or a part of it…

weekly update

i’m 106% done for the month, 38% done for the year, giving me a C+ grade!

i need to sit down and write about the things i’m doing in the backyard. 

so, where was i?

so, where was i?

for the past year i have been trying to be a devotee to Karpo and theses past few weeks, i have felt cut off.  i feel that someone is trying to get ahold of me, i don’t know who.

i know i need to read more and be more active in my witchcraft.  i know witchcraft and religion can go hand in hand and that one is not the same as the other but i feel lost.  i am trying to-

i am trying to live this new life.  this life where i am working out, taking care of my body, crocheting, cleaning, being an adult.

being single…

i’m gonna let that hang out there and come back to it later.

i want to get done with the old X-Men cartoon so i can get going with the new.

i miss Colt.  i should be seeing him in 3 weeks but i’m not.  i won’t see him for 103 days.

i need to go to bed.